rule #1: when i am tired, do not tease and joke with me or carry out repetitive noises. i have no reserves to be polite or shake things off. i am highly sensitive and thus highly volatile.

and because i cannot sleep, here is a list of what i am grateful for:
cheese.
bagels.
contact lenses.
light bulbs.
hugs.
stunningly gorgeous photos.
water.
swimming in water.
flip-flops with arch support.
creams and ointments to stop itching.
sunblock.
patronage.
things to do when you cannot sleep.
my nalgene bottles.
the ability to meet new people and make new friends.
old friends who you start up with right where you left off.
blankets.
earplugs.
pink.
a good salad.
the right to sit any way i want.
having money to spend when im starving.
someone to share a meal with.
someone to share an activity with.
the bff.
paper to write thoughts onto.
having the capacity to learn new things.
the time to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life.
surprises.
emails you know are waiting for you in your inbox.
text messages that say that someone is thinking of you.
juicy details.
rolly chairs.
free metal cases and artwork and ear impressions and earphones.
Charmin toilet paper.
keys.
alicia keys.
jack johnson.
norah jones.
savestheday.
chapstick.
parents that keep supporting me even if im not a "good" daughter.
strawberry lemonade.
chrysanthemum tea.
getting a chill and wondering if theboy wants to hold me.
secrets.
my 5 senses.
weekly social hangouts.
random social hangouts.
personalizing everything.
pens.
waking up without knots in my shoulders.
friends from whom you can ask for help.
being able to make mistakes and not get stoned for them.
sleeping.

good luck in your endeavors.