i'm so over being blue

i didn't like work today. now i don't want to go tomorrow. and that's why i can't sleep.

we've been working on an art project, where we drew an image over four canvases and we each took one to paint. yesterday, we worked on it for the first time in a week but because i had a student who needed to talk, i couldn't partake in painting. i understand that the others have been antsy to finish, but they basically went ahead and changed the canvas i was working on without telling me. so that when i did come over, i was shocked.

today, we worked on it again but i had already checked out because of yesterday so i busied myself with the students who weren't painting. the others continued working on it and they continued to change the panel in question. by then, i stopped caring about them consulting me about anything. but i didn't like how they kept insisting that i sign my name on it. i didn't want my name on anything that i didn't feel i took part in. so that when my partner asked again if i would sign my name, i was fed up.

i'm sure this sounds like no big deal to you. but i can't even look at the finished product on the wall. if they really wanted me to sign my name on the piece, they could have made me feel more like a part of the team.

crying over you