i know you had to go away, i died just a little

letting go is a tough but quick process.

moving on is a tough and slow process.

so i am helping myself by trying to forget that boys have new girlfriends and that kids exist. for now. i have to trick myself to forget so that i don't dwell. because i am going to have involuntary relapses and moments that i cannot control. but consciously, i have to keep my thoughts free of things i need to forget.

i will go study now.