it's your godforsaken right to be loved, love

when i am around certain people, my heart calms and opens up wide, giving and receiving love freely. it listens. acts. and respects. it feels and empathizes.

but i have long moments and relationships, where i am less than loving. half-awake. reactive. toxic. and the level of relating is minimal.

the term is mindfulness. being present and aware. and i can be mindful naturally.

but i have to keep trying and i have to be aware with those certain relationships.