i'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you asked for it...

[edit]

wow, three times in one day. i guess i have a lot to say...a lot of thoughts that need expelling.

haha, expelliarmus!

though i have no wand, i'm forcing some things to fly away. i'm packing up knick-knacks and trinkets. i'm gonna put some things away. shed some old skin.

it has been a constant battle between the past and the present. first i was in denial. that didn't last too long. then i tried being all mad! grr! probably for a day or two... maybe i bargained... but i wasn't aware of it if i did. and i guess now i'm in the next stage. sheesh! i have to keep trying new tactics to be present. i had to do a big sweep of my music on my iPod and iTunes. laaame.

not to mention that i could not study for the life of me today. i finally succumbed to the fact that it wasn't going to happen after 9 hours of trying and only 30 minutes of productivity.

i'll try tomorrow. and if i can't will myself to do it, i'll just have to accept that i won't do well on this first exam. wow, i guess i'm growing out of my hard-core student nature. haha...