without you here, there is less to say

the awful truth is that i am not ready to let go. i am still holding on. shaped by my experiences and attachment. i feel like i was "unfairly" ripped away from someone so it doesnt feel like he's gone. im in denial but confused at the same time. what happened?

but the more i hold on, the more i hurt and the more he hurts. i should let him go because he obviously had to go. i should let go so that he can fly away. and maybe one day, we'll meet again. be together once more.

in the meantime, i can only grieve and find a way to move on with my life.

may your soul be at peace.

never had i imagined living without your smile