blog karma

today is just about a bunch of junk. thats how i felt. why not write like it? i dont usually write horribly long sentences but today i will try even if it means being unnatural, a state that comes and goes every so often, even if i dont recognize it or care to notice its existence in my daily life amidst the boring and the dull things that surround my senses to lead to the imprisonment of ideals and form. when i was a kid, i use to have to sleep with someone in the room, particularly my mom. i think it had to do with habit and dependency. but we change our attachment figures as we grow up. so even though i can sleep by myself in normal circumstances, i would not be able to sleep well if i was in a strange and scary environment. it all just depends. its all so relative. just like the general theory of relativity. but what about string theory? brane theory? m theory? which one will prevail next? we wont know until someone can muster up some evidence.

today the birds cant use the cheap nose piled high in the sky. will you come over, eat cheese next to the mirrored wall of buy me a new sofa? silly i cant be your best friend in time of new hills.

i like to go to the grocery store at 11pm. run errands. feel like im doing something productive. i like to share in little joke sessions that lead to comfortable laughing. i like being touched to bridge the mental and emotional distance. i like waking up to a cup of water on the bedside table. i like to stretch in the morning after i wake up. i like to finish my homework early so that i can write. i like others to IM me first because i always feel like i interrupt people when i go first. just like when im on the phone. i like wearing the proper outerware for any given day. i like to share hugs with friends who arent feeling well. i like to surprise people. i like to leave random notes telling people how i appreciate them, whether electronic or physical. i like to eat potatoes, like when i used to eat mashed potatoes for breakfast in 8th grade with soy sauce. i like to walk around campus with friends so i dont feel so lonely. i like to receive emails from friends saying, "where have you been?" and i like laying down next to a beating heart that reminds me that i am alive and blessed.