soon love soon

today i went bike riding for at least 8.4 miles from seventeenth street in huntington beach to orange street in newport beach. it doesn't seem that far by car, but if you are going back against the sun and wind, it is LOOOONG.

i also watched "21 grams" today and realized that i appreciate the fact that alejandro gonzalez inarritu doesnt think the audience is dumb. i appreciate that he made his movie something you have to follow because he has the faith that we can figure it out.

so watching the movie again, there were a couple of things that stood out.
1) every character said or heard "life goes on."
2) when paul drove christina home and put her seat back, i thought it was a beautiful and poignant detail that there was a baby seat in the back.

and yes, like inarritu said, the movie was in english but it was very latino.

so i drove home after watching it and realized that whenever i watch a movie, i see the boy in every male character. and i came to the conclusion that he's a part of some classification i do of all males. which is really sad. because he's not every guy. and i wish i could just see him for who he is and accept that person. cuz like paul said in "21 grams," "we're not changing" and i shouldnt expect anything like that. but i cant help but think that change is possible even though i never see it happen. eh... gotta identify the expectations so i can let go of them.

and we will be as one people