i do not know why i am always so surprised when i think about this point, but so much has changed from a year ago.

[shakes head in disbelief]

sometimes i long for what i had then: the familiar steps i took, the scent upon my skin, the feeling of comfort that gave me confidence. but as i have been told, this is a waste of a thought. but it has always been hard for me to let go. let go. let go...

of my fears.
of my perfectionism.
of a soul that changed my own.
of a love that had my heart.
of worrying about things out of my control.
of caring about what others will think.
of controlling.
of me.