and i know you're next to me but i must confess what's in my head

mood: chill & exhausted

let me reiterate how much i do not like sunrises, especially when you stumble across them without wanting to see them. it would be a different story if i had planned it. you know, that's cool. but, when you think it's still night time and then all of a sudden, you're like "huh?"

sometimes, the words just wanna come out and you wish you had the strength to pick up a pen and write a letter. but all you can do is sit idly at the screen, attempting to formulate these deep thoughts that have been sittng on your chest for the past four months.

i wish i would say what i felt to people. cuz sometimes, i just dont think its appropriate. and i hold it back, i hold it in. there's so much i wish i could have said. people who i wish i would have gotten to know. but i held back. always always always holding back.

one puff, two puff, three puff, four puff, five im feeling real high