most of the time, i feel fine. but sometimes, even when things are going well, i feel this tinge of loneliness and emptiness. and i want to swim around in it, hoping that i will come out all wrinkley and puckered, maximizing the negative feelings. but at the same time, i know i need to find strength within myself. comfort and security are mere illusions. if i wish to feel them, all i have to do is imagine them. however, strength is different. there are physical manifestations of strength, as well as mental and emotional. these are the goals of my battle. this battle i must fight by myself. and i can do it. i just have to wake up every day and re-resolute myself.

on a lighter note, hot curlers are nice.

remember how big baja fresh's portions are when ordering.

what's for new year's?

sad how you can feel so empty with something and without something. sad. i know.