after half a glass one wine...

my head already feels heavy. so i'm going to pour out the rest and find some gum to chew. speaking of gum... have you ever read "bird by bird"? read the section on "perfectionism." and here are some lyrics that caught my ears this evening.

happy trails to you, until we meet again.

ps: happy belated birthday, LK! :) thanks for letting me celebrate with you last night!

Far Away
By: Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

dear darling,

it's another year to add under your belt and a new year to look forward to! what will you do? what do you want to accomplish? what do you want for yourself?

i hope this year brings you closer to all your hopes and goals. i hope you are in the company of marvelous people. i hope that you are overflowing with joy. i hope your talents and skills are being utilized and appreciated. i hope you see life's most beautiful creations. i hope you see your power to have the life you want.

i miss you. i hope i can see you soon and catch up.

happy birthday, darling!

love,
dear.

"The goal of life, the goal of anybody’s life, in fact the only real goal in all of our lives, is to leave this world a better place. To create a lasting impression that you were there, that you made a real difference. To touch lives, to love and be loved."
- Dr. Bill Steinbech

"Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake."
- Henry David Thoreau

"Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."
- Oliver Goldsmith

"Don't waste your life in doubts and fears: spend yourself on the work before you, well assured that the right performance of this hour's duties will be the best preparation for the hours or ages that follow it."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
- Helen Keller

"Happiness resides not in possessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul."
- Democritus

"Happiness is not a matter of events, it depends upon the tides of the mind."
- Alice Meynell


Happy birthday, Scorpio I's.

i will love you when you're blue

in two hours, my friend will have been born 25 years ago. and i will have known her for 14 years. though our conversations are months apart and our hangouts are years in pending, i still love her to death. i know nothing about her except what she blogs, and if she reads mine, she may have some fuzzy clue of what life state i am in. such is the nature of our friendship. but i know if i have some question or if i am in dying need for her opinion, i could leave her a message and she would respond back when she can. i hope she knows that this holds true for her too.

we used to plot against boys who liked too many girls at a time, write entertaining screenplays for class, share lunches, keep each other updated with letters (even in the summertime, when we couldn't see each other!), smile at each other from across the room. it was always very comforting to know she was there. and i was always inspired by her creativity and spirit; she was contagious! :)

most importantly, our souls and/or hearts were "made out of the same stuff." that explained our connection. something about how we related (though i was not aware of my own soul when we walked the same path) was too familiar to be coincidental. this i believe whole-heartedly. and i realize now, she was the first instance of me finding part of my cookie.

we are currently walking different paths and we cannot see each other across the distance. but she is still very much a part of me and who i am.

happy birthday, josephine joann. may this year bring you all the beauty and joy that you deserve, along with the wisdom and courage to follow your goals and dreams.

l.y.l.a.s. coKoPebblez637.