if you ever change your mind

two things:

1. we are our own worst enemies.
2. it is painful being yourself.

one other thing:
1. i dont know what makes me happy.

about leaving, leaving me behind.

they all have gone home

hamsters have a life span of at most 2-3 years. so this makes sense why sam had a hamster cemetary in "garden state."

i ran a random errand last night. my professor, one of the two who called me for my interview into this school, called me and said, "ill give you a few dollars if you take me dr gs' house." huh? but i did. and he talked of how he'd miss my class when we left, complimented me on my music collection. i said id walk him to the door with my umbrella. he said he makes new year's revolutions. i asked him if he had a new favorite book and then felt nostalgic. i remember how much i laughed with him and dr. m over the phone, three people thrown together without faces but finding that we had similar hearts.

show you the way love's supposed to be

the atlantic was born today

here's to higher spirits!

i need you so much closer

ill be there by your side

me: im in the mindset "life is short... better to not dwell on the small stuff"
me: small stuff just wears you out..leaving you little energy for big stuff.

so i have to let go of caring for so much, worrying about so much, that i am frozen by my own information overloads. it's not going to destroy me if i stop noticing every little thing that could have some significance. it's really just what i make of it. and if i care about so much for everything, then everything becomes a crisis. and quite frankly, i am over it. its not worth my energy.

just call on me and ill send it along with love from me to you

its better just to hold you

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

wont you hold me now?

once upon a dream...

usually, its about growing and being the best person i know i can be. but today, let it be about excitement. and maybe, oh maybe, about happiness.

all my love.

you build me up

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

you could have been happy

maybe if i stopped writing, i wouldnt think so much. but then again, if i didnt write, id still think but there would just be no evidence of the thoughts that i had. maybe that would be better. or maybe i should only write when my thoughts are worth remembering. ::shrugs shoulders::

i really dont know how to be challenged. whyd i start now?

it was exactly then i decided

baby don't go

happy lunar new year! here's to a year of good health, prosperity, happiness, and growth. may all your wishes come true and may your presence on this earth shine like the star that you are.

how can i wake up tomorrow?

these bandages

haha, it is 6PM and i am at the apple store blogging for you. who needs internet service when you can do it free here? haha...

ive been shaking

today

thank you, lkim, for reminding me:

"And all of a sudden there isn’t enough room for you to complain so much or feel sorry for yourself."

it's time i stop thinking about what i don't have and what i do have.

i found it all

Why am i so curious?

While surfing xangas, I came across this quote that struck me. Thanks momtarro!

"I guess we all expect the best things in life to be ahead of us, or outside of us, outside of our normal everyday life. But no it's all right there inside of us."

Don't let it go away.

said id walk you home


"I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don’t hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me ‘til Your dying day
Don’t let me get away"



"When Autumn comes, it doesn't ask
It just walks in where it left you last
You never know when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart

Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I don't know what it is, no I don't know what it is
At all

I can't be sure that this state of mind
Is not of my own design
I wish there was an over-the-counter test for loneliness
For loneliness like this"

thats the way this wheel keeps working now