i don't think i love you enough
by andy lau and kelly chen

wo shiang wo pu gou ai ni/ I don't think I love you enough
wo pu chem wang le zhi ji/ I've never forgot about myself
mei na me quen xin tou ru/ I'm not that into the love
suo yi hui yi bai du ti/ Thats why I've failed thoroughly
wo shiang wo pu gou ai ni/ I don't think I love you enough
wo wang le ni de yong qi/ I've forgotten about your strength
mei pan fa zhong lai yi zhi/ Can't start again
ye zhi hao ting tian you ming/ The only way is to obey fate
pu neng zhai mei you yue liang de ye li/ Cannot exist in a night without moonlight
ye pu neng qing yi, de bi shang yan ching/And couldn't close my eyes easily
ying wei ni hui chu shien, zhai tian kong huo shin li/ Because you would appear either in the sky, or in my heart
pu neng zhai yi wang wu chi de ti fang/ ??
ye pu neng zhan jing le yong ji ren chuin/ And couldn't barge in a big crowd
ying wei chi pu chi muo/ Because, with loneliness, or without loneliness
dou hui ti shing wo/It'll also tell me that
wo shi qu le; wo pu gou ai de ni/ I've lost you; I didn't love you enough

hehe, i'm at work posting. muhahaha... happy lunar new year!

new year's blooms

it seems like nothing's happened

so most of the room is complete. the pieces that needed to go left. the pieces that needed shifting were shifted. there are only shelves to put up and a chair to be had! muhahahha...

in other news? i had my first mini-breakdown on friday at work. so i mentally checked out and stopped doing my job. luckily i was on the bus and my partner was there and i didn't need to do much. but my students thought the other students were so immature but they weren't any better, just quieter. [sigh]

lunar new year is tomorrow. so i've been cleaning away and doing chores. i'm just waiting on a load of laundry and then i am done.

im still trying to read million little pieces but i haven't been in the reading mood too often these days. [shrugs]

there are a lot of things i need to do but haven't gotten around to yet. hopefully ill make some gains next week.

im trying to convince mitz to work in the same program as me. tehehe...

i don't have anything else to report.

till ive shared them with you

so this is the new year

although this is sort of late, here are my lists from 2005.

best trips
1. philadelphia - september
2. white water rafting - july
3. east coast - march

newness
1. no school
2. new jobs
3. cruise

challenges
1. job search
2. capstone (thesis)
3. confrontation

favorite movies
1. harry potter and the goblet of fire
2. corpse bride
3. monster-in-law

on-going
1. cleaning my room
2. communicating effectively
3. finding satisfaction

milestones
1. graduating from undergrad
2. looking for a job
3. finding a job

cool cats
1. zerl
2. mitz
3. mind
4. minh
5. alli
6. jess
7. elli
8. lisa
9. pili

meals
1. parker's lighthouse - feb
2. sir winston's - mar
3. claim jumper's - may
4. el torrito - july
5. cheryl's diner - july (during white water trip)
6. cheesecake factory - december

best surprises
1. digital camera
2. white water rafting trip

and i don't feel any different

a dios le pido

ive been getting a lot more headaches than usual. not sure why. i think being at work is more stressful than going to class and it's affecting me. like the rash i got last week. [sigh]

is there a purpose to life? i know i shouldn't think about it but sometimes, i can't help it. [sigh]

a dios le pido

go, matchpoint!

go, pat & oscar's and their breadsticks!

go, crate & barrel!

go, gloria jean's and their rewards card!

go, target!

go, curry house and their gratin set!

go, eli, and, & pil!

go, amazon!

go, ACCESS staff!!

"Be Without You"
by Mary J. Blige

Chemistry was crazy from the get-go
Neither one of us knew why
We didn't build nothing overnight
Cuz a love like this takes some time
People swore it off as a phase
Said we can’t see that
Now from top to bottom
They see that we did that (yes)
It’s so true that (yes)
We’ve been through it (yes)
We got real sh** (yes)
See baby we been...

Too strong for too long (and I can’t be without you baby)
And I’ll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)
Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

I got a question for ya
See I already know the answer
But still I wanna ask you
Would you lie? (no)
Make me cry? (no)
Do somethin’ behind my back and then try to cover it up?
Well, neither would I, baby
My love is only your love (yes)
I’ll be faithful (yes)
I’m for real (yes)
And with us you’ll always know the deal
We’ve been...

Too strong for too long (and I can’t be without you baby)
And I’ll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)
Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

See this is real talk
I’ma always stay (no matter what)
Good or bad (thick and thin)
Right or wrong (all day everyday)
Now if you’re down on love or don’t believe
This ain’t for you (no, this ain’t for you)
And if you got it deep in your heart
And deep down you know that it’s true (come on, come on, come on)
Well, let me see you put your hands up (hands up)
Fellas tell your lady she’s the one (fellas tell your lady she’s the one, oh)
Put your hands up (hands up)
Ladies let him know he's got your love
Look him right in his eyes and tell him
We’ve been...

Too strong for too long (and I can’t be without you baby)
And I’ll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can’t sleep without you baby)
Anybody who’s ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can’t be without your baby

"candlelit table"

"the job or not the job?"

"deliver me from the pain"

"all eyes on you"

ooh boy you looking like you like what you see

the dad is back and it's been cool. he's trying to be better to my mom, or so he promised. and he's been pretty nice, even to me. like he appreciated us more because he was away for a bit.

i've been dog sitting for the past week and a few days. and i try to brush his fur everyday. and after i brush, i pull out of the fur. this last time, one of the bristles dug up under one of my thumbnails. and it really hurts.

i was trying to read harry potter for the first time in like 5 days, but it was too intense for me, too much! in fact i was so afraid of what would happen that i had to close the book and find some company online. maybe i should try to read it during the day.

i want to watch "match point" and "chronicles of narnia" and "family stone." i also want to see the 2nd harry potter movie because it's the only one i haven't seen yet. i like neo's "so sick."

a couple of my friends have had a lot of luck with finding good jobs, or the good jobs finding them. that's really cool!

i called a couple of friends on friday to wish them a happy birthday. and although we've hardly talked in the last 6 months, it was like we were back where we last left off. that's really cool. and a sign of true friendship, i think.

anyone have any fundraising ideas? my partner and i are thinking of doing a prom for the students but we have no funds. how can we scrounge together moola?

won't you come over and check up on it

the sun'll come out tomorrow

to miss rorie - thank you for the present! i love all the pooh stuff you've made me! i wish i had your skills. i hope everything is going well for you! take care, sweetie! say hi to ed for me.

to mister lim - happy 23rd birthday! hope dinner went well. kayaking? =)

to mister camba - happy 24th birthday! your alma mater did well in football this year! i saw them win a game and thought of my bucaloylo friend. hope this b-day wasn't a disaster!

to zer - i'm going to start million little pieces right after i finish harry potter.

to ellie - when do you want to get together? will you be staying with leon? let's plan!

to min - hope your first and second day at work went well!

bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow there'll be sun

be still my heart

words i am not too fond of:

whatever

yup

interesting happenings in the past week?

tuesday i went to watch "memoirs of a geisha" with kev, min, and zer

wednesday night i went to tgif's for a belaaaated birthday dinner with jef

with work, it's pretty normal so there's not much to blog about.

oh. here's a quote from the mom.
mom: i haven't been sad all the days that your dad has been gone. but i'm sad now that he's coming back tomorrow.

haha.

lately it's mind is all it's own

it's about trust and honesty

new year's recap...

going to downtown disney was a bust. the rainforest cafe's wait was 2 - 2.5 hours and we didn't want to wait 2.75 hours for our reservation at the house of blues

m & m went with me to the grocery store for eating/drinking at home supplies

we picked up carne asada fries and fish tacos

we picked up min's sleepover supplies

we met up with zee

we went to a video store to pick up "mean girls" and "saving face."

we went to the mart next store, where a drunk latino man kept saying things like "you're the best baby" and "i love you, best baby."

all 4 of us went to my house and ate. our bartender mixed up some drinks and mit made jello shots

we watched "mean girls."

we took pictures and watched mc look much like the mean girls on the countdown

we toasted the new year in

we started watching "saving face."

we walked z to her car

m & m and i finished the movie, with some 2 o'clock munchies

we slept at around 330am

fuuuuunness! it was an excellent girls night out/in! and i was surrounded by my nearest and dearest. i felt so fortunate, to have everything i could possibly need and want, in addition to having bomb-diggity friends, a loving family, and a supportive partner.

i look forward to seeing what 2006 brings us all. let's make this year an amazing year! cheers!

and that's the way it's supposed to be: unconditional love