My sample personal astrology reading:

"Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

Cautious, prudent, and rather self-contained, you are a person who approaches life realistically and who is not inclined to take foolish chances or get carried away by the overly optimistic or idealistic schemes of starry-eyed dreamers. In fact, you frequently have a jaundiced view of such things. You are rather worldly-wise at a fairly young age, even something of a cynic. Often the world doesn't seem like a safe, friendly place to you, and you tend to approach life in a guarded, conservative manner. You are generally calculating and careful, and are rarely spontaneous, fluid, open, and childlike.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

At heart you are very gentle, impressionable, and receptive -a dreamer. The world of your imagination, feelings, and intuition is as real to you as anything in the outer world, though you may have trouble verbalizing or interpreting your inner experiences in a way others can understand. Mystical, artistic, musical, emotional and imaginative, you have a rich inner life, though you may seem rather unobtrusive and quiet outwardly. You usually keep to yourself."

i don't know what it is but lately, i've been very affected by the movies i've seen. i mean, i've only seen 3 in the past year. but i've cried at least twice at each one of them and been traumatized into silence for one of them!

ahh!

i didn't know how sad "bridge to terabithia" was. i cried for the 2nd half of the movie! hmph. but still very enjoyable! awww...

what's it gonna be?

life celebrations:

* the festivities got underway early this year with a beautiful day trip on march 3. i met up with mitzi and she ever so graciously drove us up the 101 to the beautiful santa barbara, my first time there! the day could not have been more perfect with warm temperatures and mild winds blowing in our faces as we sat outside on the patio at la salsa, enjoying a quesadilla, ensalada, y sopa. after filling up, we walked over to massage envy and treated ourselves to much needed pampering, an hour to be exact! when we dressed and paid our bill, we stepped out into the santa barbara sun and both said, "i feel like putty!" (or something to that effect). after regaining control of our bodies, we explored our way to the pier where we saw sand soldiers and special guys on roller skates! with the sun hiding behind the hills, we drove off into the sunset, continuing and finishing our catch-up conversation that occurred the entire day. for a mini-roadtrip, we never needed the radio. thank you for living it up with me!

* on march 6th, i received a present from minh. he got me what i've been wanting, even on the brink of possible termination of his job. we figure we can sell it if he needs the money to live. how sweet!

* today, i met up with my darling jeffrey and we had dinner at johnny rocket's. the smoke house was superb and well worth the clogging of arteries. after doing a bit of shopping, we headed over to our movie. because dinner was on him, i purchased our movie tickets. he had given me his student id from uci while i told him of a sneaky plan i had and stepped aside as i walked up to the counter. i told the worker that i wanted 2 tickets to the next showing of "bridge to terabithia." he asked me if i had a student id. so i handed him the id and the credit card. then he asked me if i was a student too. and for some reason, i was torn. i shook my head to be honest but also nodded. so i gave off the impression that i was a bobble head as i said, "no." he gave me the print out of my receipt and said, "you're supposed to say 'yes' to that. but i gave you the discount anyway. enjoy the show." enjoy the show we did, as we walked into the theatre laughing at my bobble head conscience.

cuz i can't pretend

march 6, 2007:
work has been crazy because some of my students are acting crazy. they are driving me up the wall. i take so much and then i break. i need to take my mental health days and i need them soon. i need to close program. and i need to get the program back into shape.

please clobber me now.

day 3 of the frenimies. and i am ready for a second night of drinking.


march 7, 2007:
it was day four, with a fieldtrip on top of it all. and i, half of the staff, was pulled out for duty at another school site. i successfully accomplished my tasks and had some good conversations with some of the students (mostly male, thank goodness!), a relief from the drama. moreover, i got to practice for my playoff volleyball game with the students! too good!

however, i heard from my partner later on in the day that i missed some emotional outbreaks and in-someone's-face action. poor guy, tackling good old teenage girl drama by himself. major props go out to him! but good gracious, it's still burning! when will it end!? we talked, wondering what steps we should take while addressing our frustration, annoyance, and speedy burnout. we need some happy hour and we need some happy hour soon!

can you see an end to this student drama? what steps should this afterschool program team take? do we have what it takes to take back the program? or should we throw in the towel and get rid of all the students?

...stay tuned for tomorrow's episode. will the center of the storm, kate, go to sports or will she take the afternoon off? you'll find out as the saga continues...

"you're sooo tight!"

i had a much needed break from my students today. spectacular! even got to warm up for volleyball with a whole different set of sweet and innocent children. then i proceeded to play 2.5 hours of volleyball at two different sites tonight. wonderful, really! the league team that i play for even advanced to the finals next week! but the pain is creeping up in my lower back, my left ankle, and my shoulders. i took mitzi's advice and stretched out afterwards, but the shoulders are way too tight! i hope i can hold down the impending headache.

life? can't complain. i just need to shape up. do my thing. do what i need to do. what does that entail?

being respectful to the parentals. make a decision about what my next step will be. give myself some down time.

good night.