here i am once again, just torn into pieces

today's story:
i awoke today feeling relieved of the previous night's headache. i puttered around the house, completing the ab workout that i missed because of that silly headache along with the helping the mom email her sister. then, senor colton rang and i left to meet him at mitsuyoshi. we ate, burned tongues, laughed, caught up, and watched three tables leave before us, although they came in after us. we parted and i headed home to take the mom out for a couple of errands. i dropped her off at the gym, went home and watched felicity, and then went to the gym myself for a run. i came home sweaty and panty, when zee called me. as i wallowed in my post-gym attire, we caught up on what a meiklejohn is and what she has to do before tomorrow. after releasing a secret, i jumped in the shower and sped out with my parents to the land of soup.

reactions, sentiments, speculations, etc.:
* lunch with colton was fun, but i may have been more hyper than my usual self. ;)
* my chest gets very congested after a hard run.
* i like talking to zee on the phone! muhaha, connections!
* my souplantation meal was the best i've had in years! the tomato soup - mmm mmm mmm! and those chocolate chip cookie bars? wow!

i'm going to blow up from eating too much!

if you should ever leave me, then life would still go on believe me

today's story:
i woke up tired but forced myself up to take the mom out for errands. during the trip, i heard from tennessee-stranded zee. watched a bit of tv after lunch and then struck from tiredness, i slept for almost 3 hours. zee called from her new apt. i was still full from lunch and waited for my parents to finish dinner before heading off to look for basketball shorts with pockets. stopped by coldstone's for some cookie minster, a new like from my ice cream social with jeffrey. talked to jess and further researched the next step. just did my ab workout and here i am.

reactions, sentiments, speculations:
* when i awoke from my nap and saw that it was 6, i totally thought that it was 6 in the morning! i was discombobulated for some time, ask zee!
* i felt happy all day because of yesterday.
* i need to catch up on lost sleep.

The world could show nothing to me, so what good would living do me?

See you soon, Zee! Rock on, micheljon (sp)!

sunday, monday happy day!

to the sua ladies of august, happy birthday Cassie and Jessica.

the original fab five at sua:

thomas
heffron
hays
feasel
golden

funny how 4 of those 5 were deans. hmm.

Tonight will be the night that we begin to ease the plugs out of the dam

no one will ever understand you. so stop hoping that some day someone will.

And we will stand knee deep in the flow, the undertow grab our toes and won't let go

maybe you never get over someone you love...

"i'm emotional. i need to talk things over and talk about how i feel. and you knew that about me. and you still pursued me because you knew you wanted somehting with me. but you're not strong enough to have it and that makes you a coward." -- felicity

it's stuck in my mind. and it's funny how i can rewatch episodes of felicity and not get tired of it. mostly because i can relate. like how i'm track 4 on "futures."

"when are you going to stop apologizing for who you are?"

...you just learn to live with it.

well can't you see that it's just raining

bad things happen. to bad people. to good people. to old people. to newly made people. but if you're still alive, what really matters is how you deal with it: if you can let it go, if you have some perspective, etc. of course, it ain't the easiest thing to do. perhaps, part of living is figuring out how to deal so that you can still fully live after a storm rages.

there aint no need to go outside.

The Lord knows that this world is cruel
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you

hanging out at my brother and darcey's new pad with a bunch of kool kats and good home cooked food.

listen to all the translations of all the stories across the sky

im here in the bay area with my mother visiting my brother at his new beautiful apartment in oakland. with the daffodil yellow walls and numerous windows pouring sunshine through, i always feel quite mellow here.

so far...

we settled ourselves in on thursday night, with a caramel sundae.

we had breakfast at "the coffee mill"

we went to chinatown to buy groceries and to farmer's market for flowers

i matted my graduation pictures with my brother

we cooked a feast for my brother and his friends

we ate the feast with the brother, his gf, and his friends

we will...

go to golden gate park today

eat at phnom penh restaurant tonight

fly kites at the berkeley marina sunday

i had a dream that...

donik was sad and sharing her troubles with her friends

i hope...

my headache leaves for good

i drink more water

i figure out what my next step will be

i will get to celebrate my anni

there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard.

when the whole world fits inside of your arms, don't really need to pay attention to the alarm

the formula to uyen's happiness:

good food + jack johnson playing + openness + love = happiness

i'll keep y'all posted on how successful that formula is.

in other news, i had a fun time white water rafting (sorry, zee) two weekends ago. i started a part-time job tutoring spanish 1 last week. i'm going to keep interning at girls inc and pray that they offer me a position. ive been looking into grad schools for when i go back one day. ive been cleaning my room and trying to get rid of all my "stuff," along with changing it around a bit (took down my caraciature, put up my "parisian kiss" poster, added a table). i hung out with pili trying to find somewhere to eat! i will go jet skiing soooon, i hope. i cant stop listening to "in between dreams" by jack johnson.

to do:

watch "wedding crashers" with amy
?

go to lacma to see king tut exhibit?

go jet skiing with zee and others

read "charlie and the chocolate factory"

keep cleaning out my room

watch "march of the penguins" with...

finish watching "bourne identity"

and know that if i knew all of the answers, i would not hold them from you, no